Why do people always say they are going to do something and then never do it. I'm just as guilty of that as the next person, only now I have more guilt to deal with because of it.
I had a Great Aunt, who I loved very dearly and loved me unconditionally. I had phoned her a few times, just to see how she was and to let her know Gram and I were still thinking of her (she was my late Grandfather's oldest sister). Well. as usually happens, the phone calls began tapering off (my fault, not Aunt Winnie's) because as much as I wanted to phone her, something always seemed to come up. I realize now I was just using that as an excuse (I have always hated phoning people) to not phone her.
Yah, I would think about doing it, but then something else would come up, and I'd forget to do it. Well now I no longer have to worry about doing it. You see my Great Aunt died today. And now I have to live with the guilt I feel inside for not picking up the phone, just one more time, even if it was only to say hello.
Please let this be a reminder to all of us, no matter how busy we are. If you have elderly relatives or relatives that you hardly speak too, call them up and just say hello. It's a lot easier to do that, than to have to deal with the guilt by not doing it
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I am so sorry, Shari *hug*
I understand just how you feel, Sis. When my grandmother passed away, I was wracked with guilt about all the times I could have called her and didn't...
I often think that there must be something in our hearts that tells us our loved ones are always going to be with us, even though I know in my head that this isn't true. And when the time comes that our loved ones leave us, we realize that we've lost an opportunity to say and do the things we feel we should have said and done. It's really difficult to cope with, I know...
I know this is cold comfort, right now, Sis, but for what it's worth, Aunt Winnie is still around. You can still tell her all the things you wanted to tell her; she's a bit farther away, now, but she'll still hear you.
I won't tell you how to feel, Sis. All I'll say is that I understand, I love you, and that Aunt Winnie loves you and understands, too...
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